He just knows how to make me smile...

...and actually mean it.
You know,not like one of those smiles you give to strangers that cross your path,not like when you smile cause you wanna be nice when someone says something funny or not so funny really.
Even the duration of the smile lasts longer...today i caught myself smiling at something he said two days ago,only cause so many things remind me of him...and i got a love-hate relationship with that fact...i love it cause it feels so damn good but i also hate it cause i'm terrified i'm gonna end up falling in love with him....
I can't fall in love with him, i really shouldn't...
Love scares me.
And i'm more scared cause i don't wanna lose him to love...we got a great thing going on,i mean we are two friends that enjoy each others company and share some physical intimacy when we feel like it...and boy does the physical intimacy feel good!! :)

This whole thing is driving me crazy,and i mean that in the best way possible.
I think about all this and find myself laughing at myself...even i didn't see this happening to me.
I honestly would've never thought that a man can make me feel that way...especially not when i'm not expecting it like that.
I mean i was attracted to him the first day i saw him,but that's nothing new...i've always been a woman to Lust,never really a woman that would Love,or even like a man enough to let my guard down like that.

(I look at the T.v for a second and now i have no idea where i was going with this!)
Long story short....
"Heart,Prepare to be shattered!"